Today was a very hard challenge. This morning, early, I knew what the challenge was. As I thought about the challenge to come up with positives and negatives about Michael, I started to cry. I realized that the Michael I fell in love with 20 years ago, and the Michael I married is not here anymore. I...

Well, as I told you yesterday I tought day 7 was going to be hard, but it turned out it wasn't so hard anyway. I had this really long list of positive things and only short list of negative ones. I really enjoyed writing down the positive ones. Didn't finish the dare quit right though. I talked...

I finally did my 2 lists. When I did this Dare previously, I on his behavior before his affair. However, this time, I decided to be 'true' to the Love Dare and do it based on his current behavior. This time, the 'positive' list was very hard to write; the negative was very easy to write...

I wanted to call him today instead of sending an e-mail. It is just so impersonal. We havent talked to each other since Monday. I am fighting this feeling of defeet. I need to focus on giving more to God. I guess it's old fashioned or maybe...I am learning new ways. I just feel that if I am the one...

This dare was not as hard as I first thought it would be, but it did make me sad remembering all the things I love about my husband that are now gone. I chose to thank him (thru e mail) for singing to me (karaoke), everyone knew he was singing to me, sometimes I would tear up because I could hear the...

What an eye opening experience. When it came to making out my lists, my wife’s positive attributes exceeded her negative attributes by far. When I compare the two , it truly hurts. I love my wife so much and to think I was able to write down all these positive attributes, but yet I let the few...

3-22-10 Got up early this morning so I could get some time with God and go over my dare for the day. For me the nice list was the easiest to create. Guess it is because of the love I have for her right now and I see all the good in her. One of the things on the list was "She is a good mother"...

Somewhere along the line I got off track with my journaling. I was reading my dares, and I was DOING them (the most important part, obviously), maybe not always in the right order, and maybe a little scatter brained, but that has been my past few days. NOTHING is in the right order, and my entire life...