TODAY’S DARE: End it now. Identify every object of lust in your life and remove it. Single out every lie you’ve swallowed in pursuing forbidden pleasure and reject it. Lust cannot be allowed to live in a back bedroom. It must be killed and destroyed—today—and replaced with the sure promises of God and a heart filled with His perfect love. I've been thinking about this since I first read today's chapter early this morning.  I can't think of anything that I 'lust" after.   Nothing that I crave other than food and my husband's love and affection.  On another note, last night, I was texting with T and asked him when he will be able to come and spend time with the dog.  He said he didn't have much time these days and when he was at the house, he has stuff to do.  I told him that maybe he should come by more often as it is his home too.  He said he knows and he would love to see Roxie more, but "it's not his life now".  This made me sad.   It made me feel that since he left and let me have her that he has a new life now.  When I asked for clarification of what he meant he basically said that he missed her very much, but he was working a lot now and just didn't have time.  It made me think about his "new life" and what has changed for both of us since he left.  For him, he's living in someone else's house, in a different part of town, with a new set of friends, another job (I'm assuming), no wife, no dog.  His life has totally turned upside down.  Of course, this is all by his own choice.  So what has changed for me?  Not much.  I live in the same house, with my things still around me.  My same friends are still with me and supporting me, I still have my dog and the responsibilites that go with her.  The only think that has changed for me is that I no longer have my husband, the love of my life.  Which is worse?  Part of me doesn't feel bad for him at all since this us all his choice.   He made his bed, now he has to lie in it.  But what does having that feeling do for me?  Is it going to make him realize how wrong he is and come home?  No.  Do I want it to?  No.  I don't want him to feel the difficulty of his choices and come back because it's easier.  I want him to come back out of love for me and our marriage.  He said that he may come by today.  This time, I left the Love Dare book out in the living room.  Maybe he will see it and curiosity will get the better of him. This morning,  I found myself dreaming about him.  We were shopping together, but we weren't "together".  I remember smiling and looking at him like he was the greatest guy on earth.  I remember trying to show him my love all the while, he was preparing for a trip elsewhere and buying things to help him "get" girls.  I remember trying to be intimate and being pushed away and when asked why, it was because he had already been with several others.  Through out the dream, I kept reminding myself to be positive and not take things so negatively.  But in the end, I was hurt and disapointed that nothing I did made him want me.  I woke up from this dream about an hour before I had to get up and I layed there thinking about it.   I felt sad but tried to remind myself that it was only a dream and that there was no way I could know if any of those things would be true in real life. On day 24, it's exhausting trying to remain positive all the time and constantly looking within myself to find more things that I have done wrong and figure out how to fix it. One day at a time.  He loves me.  I believe in our marriage.  Love him unconditionally.